A Letter To Sasha

Monday, December 1, 2008

January 12, 2009

Dear Sasha,

Happy new year Sasha! How are you? How are things going in Rembau? I must say, I still miss that little place, and I wanted to go there so badly, but somehow, it’s too late, because of what has happened between you and me. But I still remember your mom’s house at Triang, Temerloh, I bet you do still remember those fascinating and memorable moments, that we’ve been through together. And you used to always tell me about wanting to go to my parents house, and getting know about them, and I kept denying your request. Oh my God, sorry, I really want to say these things for old time’s sake. No offense ok.

Sasha, it has been a few years I haven’t hear anything from you, lately I’ve been wondering where are you, and what are you doing right now. Simply said, I’m just a little bit of missing you, but just don’t get me wrong, I’m not going to talk about getting back to you, or still loving you, but it’s all just my curiosity about you. I want you to know that I am myself truly now with mixed feelings inside, happy about my new life but sad of lonely life without someone to love or to be loved. Hahaha..Well, you know I didn’t make it easy after we’ve broke up, so did you right? I know, it’s all my mistakes.

As for me, I am quite busy these days on the final year of Unikl and the streets music performance with LARA . In Unikl, I’m entering Semester 4 now, and it’s going to end soon. I am enjoying them so far , but i still cant imagine who I am now, if I’m successfully graduated from Uitm Penang, I could have a great job, a beautiful wife and a happy family. But this is life, and this is my destiny. I got loses part, and I got wins part. Most part of my life’e is the loses part. How bout you? I’ve heard rumors about u’re working as an IPTS college admin at Nilai right? And u’re getting engaged with someone right? You know what, I’m truly happy with your life now, and I think I did make a right decision asking you to leave me and find someone is better than me. Is he better than me? Yeah, of coz he is.

Sasha, it’s time for me to stop writing now. Well, I don’t want to annoy you by flashing back all those memory, I just want you to know that I’m so proud of being part of your memory, and to me there aren’t words, there aren’t thoughts could describe what has happened between you and me. Now I realize that I can’t ever forget about you. No matter what, You got to take good care of yourself, and I’ll be praying always for your happiness.

Yours truly,

Rocko Mohamad